Back to blogging after 1 month of absence.. Currently in the middle of pre-exam peroid. In the past, i guess i would have been studying pretty hard so that i can continue on through to the next semester. But this time the motivation just isnt there. It remains the fact that regardless how well i score, or how well i did in my exams, it doesn't reflect on my future. Thats how it is for my course, or at least this is how i think it is. Looking around me, there are many instances of seeing parents stacking up remedials, tuition and extra lessons for their child. Sometimes i wonder if its really neccessary. For a child, this is the only period in their life that they can live with an innocent mindset, and play to their hearts content. After entering adulthood, with all the responsibilities stacked on their shoulders, shouldnt they at least have a carefree childhood to look back on? I am thankful that my parents didnt push me into any of such "training". 

Hello blog, its been more than awhile. Time flies, and 24 hours a day dont seems to be enough.

Spend the last few hours reading my previous blog entries. Some memories are refreshed,  while other events seem like they arent kept in any of my brain cells. Its kind of fun, looking back at the past, seeing how the old me thinks and write. The present me had been through alot more compared the the naive me. I used to look at the world in a very pessimistic way, and had all the wrong priorities. My old mind circulates its thoughts around itself, forever thinking why people ignored me, and why am I not like my other friends, whose smiles are so radiant. Turns out that the answer to these questions are very simple; the fact that i am thinking of such qns is the answer to my misery. I care and think too much into all the small little things people did or did not do. But well, eventually I learn my lesson. I learnt to let go, to be optimistic, and when you are happy that's all that matters isnt it? Who cares if person A ignored you? Or person B failed to call you out on an outing? There are more important things in life to ponder about. A pat on the back for myself for growing up, good job.

2 months ago, I went through a procedure which changed my outlook on life. I was diagnosed with mitral valve prolapse since I was 13 years old. Its a heart condition whereby the valves did not close properly. In my case, I had a little back flow of the blood as well. Last July, my cardiologist informed me that the back flow of blood had became severe and requires surgical intervention. I waited til November and gotten an open heart surgery done. The cardiothoratic surgeon repaired my valves. Apparently my preop condition were worser than I thought, I was in a state whereby I can experience sudden death at anytime with no warnings. Imagine being told that you were walking on a road full of timebombs and you didnt even realise it. That scares the hell out of me. To make things worse, after the surgery, I was told by my surgeon that my valves are very soft. This frightens me, I kept thinking if this will affect how long the repair can last, but only time can tell. The doctors cant give me a definite answer either. Been telling myself not to worry about something you cant solve.
The one thing that I achieve from this surgery is my appreciation towards life. Life is seriously too short. A year passes by in a blink of an eye. And we just began 2014 but its already February. We cant grasps onto life as it takes on no form, but life is all around us. We live in it, every single second. With seconds turning into minutes in the speed of a bullet train, its time to start to open my eyes,  and appreciate everything around me, including myself. Humans are fragile creatures, we never know how and when we are going to depart from this earth. So why think about it? Enjoy this moment, as every moment i am breathing meants that I'm alive.

feel like blogging today!!!!!!!!!

ok life is like a train ride for me nowadays. work, studies, work, studies.. [=
but it's alright, even though i got complaint at times, i kinda like my work. it feels like i am finally doing something about my life to make it better.. [earning money to do wadever i wanna do]
though its mad hectic due to oncoming tests, i believe i can do it! yay!

let's talk about today! i'm quite proud about myself today! finally re-enter gym after many months of absents from those machines..
i do not want to deprive myself from getting fit just because i have a weak heart. i just have to do it in moderation! and rest if i feel like i reach my limit...
did running, some weight lifting, leg thingy, sit ups and a set of exercise? i dunoo wad's that call but it's very efficient! i couldnt walk down the stairs for the rest of the day! but wad makes me happy is that i manage to complete it, although i could have done better at the last part.
hope that i can go gym almost every tuesday! [=

well nowadays i've been trying to stop thinking so much. regardless of some attitude changes, or some problems, i will not let it affect me. things will only affect you if you let it through your door. i saw u through the door pinhole and i decided to shut the door with a thousand locks.. let my inner me live in peace!! [=

firstly, wanna congratulate my uncle and my da jiu mu for their marriage yesterday!!! wish u both zao sheng gui zi!!! [=[=

yesterday was a SUPER LONG DAY! woke up at 6am in the morning to prepare.. reached grandma house at around 8am plus..
wedding dinner starts at around 8pm and my cousins and i was the receptionist.. the food was great!!!
after the wedding, my cousins, sis, their husbands/bfs, bro and me when to clarke quay~~
at first we wanted to go to a pub.. but after that we went to the arena for clubbing instead~~
had lots of fun!! dancing, playing the disc game, drinking.. BUT if would have been a great night if i didnt puke in the toliet, outside the arena, and below my house. wtf. damn drowzy and damn gg.
first time when clubbing, well nt a bad experience but i swear i wont drink so much again.. wtf.

exhausted~~ today's a long day!!

i am down with fever, cough and flu.. yesterday was much worst! but felt alot better now [;

today went to sch at 12pm for practicals.. i think this prac is much easier than retinoscopy~ at least i no need to concentrate as much.. especially when i am dying with flu and fever..
after practicals, had lunch with my friends and went to katong to sing karaoke with them..
seriously i think the karaoke is very worth it as it only cause $8 dollars for a small room. the facilities are great! they had a touch screen for you to choose your songs from.
i love the part when we are all singing "peng you" together!! felt really bonded and glad that i had such great friends to hang out with~
if only i am feeling better today.. i was coughing non stop! the weather is seriously bad this few weeks. i really wonder if this is a sign that the earth is ending at 2012.. in the past, there werent so many rainy seasons around this period.. however right now, a sunny sky can just turn dark in a few minutes..

tmr is friday!! really look forward to seeing the garrulous again!! finally its friday~~
oh and once its friday, means saturday is coming!!! time for rest and sleep! [=[=[=

just had my medication, and i am feeling drowsy~ time for bed!!!
goodnite!! [=

well, just found out something interesting!
somebody called me rude! well not exactly called, but that person wrote about it. well, i personally found the post interesting. the best post i ever seen in that person's blog actually, hence before this it's full of that person writing about the same subject about how good her life is. it's nice bit of a change to write something like that. hey, i am honoured!

well anyways, needed to clarify something.
yesterday i didnt wear contact len, nor am i wearing specs. my contact lens had a scratch and i cant wear it anymore. damn maxi eye brand is damn useless.
so i am walking towards the toliet after gems, and i saw someone who looks like that person. i wasnt sure if it's her, hence i didnt smile and looked away. it's only when she walked near that i realise it's really her. well, apparently she found it "rude" for someone to ignore her. and has to bitch about things all the way back to the past and shoot me. wonder who is the crude and rude one here??

but i admit, alright i am in the wrong.. if you are the one who walked pass me and ignored me, i would confirm bitch about you as well. hence, i dun blame you.

however, the way you describe me tempts me to shoot you back! you made my day more interesting!
well cyber stead? i was in sec one or two at that time.. of cus i am interested in knowing what relationship is like.
and one thing~~ if i am a bimboo, what the hell are you?? bitch? well the way you behave suits that word perfectly! congratulation!
wooh and hey gal, please dun compare me with you. it's insulting! if i chiobu then u my laobu? eek! please dun insult my mother..
oh and i do not need your forgiveness nor your invitation to visit your blog... i visit anybody's blog anytime i like...
well, i wonder who the hell invented the phrase "fuck yourself with a penknife". you made me laugh! try it yourself bitch [= such a creative comment coming from someone in art course.

well, really glad that i saw your post!! was feeling bored, thanks for keeping me entertain so damn late in the night~~

warning??? wow so fierce! i am scared! someone help me!!

well that's all!! might meet each other in school again! i will be sure to SMILE at you!!
ciao!!