regrets. life is filled with so much regrets. on friendships, family, etc. i done many wrong things, and only now i am looking back, regreting. i am such an idiot. an arsehole.

there is only a lifetime for you go live, and you either live it wisely, or live it stupidly. Wisely [ not having any regrets when you are on your deathbed] stupidly [ only start to regret on things when it's too darn late]

it's your own life, you choose.

every sec, every minute, time is passing by. this seconds adds up to a minute, and a minute adds up to hours, and hours adds up to one full day. time is something that is priceless. right now, while i am typing, i am using up minutes of my time. this minutes will not come back to me again. right now, it's 12.14 am. there is only one 2/8/2009 in your entire life. only one time are you going to see a 12.14 am on this day. it's priceless. you can either choose to waste this 12.14 am doing stuffs you will regret, or spend this time in a more meaningful way, like smsing a lost friend. some people may think that they have lots of time, they have all the time in the world. but let's put it this way. everyday, you wasted some of your time doing stupid stuffs like self pitying, etc. all this wasted time, if you add them up together, you have not just wasted a few minutes, you have wasted years. life is too short, far too short. it seems like just yesterday, i am still a secondary student. but in reality, i am already an adult. time flys, every single moment of your life, time is ticking. it never stops. while you sleep, time is still ticking. you are getting older and older every second, and you are aging continuously. you never know when your heart will fail you. life is too short. so start pursuing your dreams, put actions into words, dont wait until the next day, as the next day might be too late. there is only one life, live it happily.

today i looked back to the past. regrets came up more then happiness. i am too self centered. basically, i think too much about myself. how people treat me, how people judged me, wad people think about me, me me me me me. ones, i got into depression as i managed to convince myself that i am hated by everyone, and i am the victim. slap me, everyone. i should have known better, why circulate my thoughts only around myself. i am selfish.
there will always be people out there who are judgemental. who do not like you as who you are. who think that you are fake even when you just behave like who you are. this are people who do not understand you. people who understand you, if they treat you differently as well, then it's time to change. but people whom you just known, or you only exchange some conversations, are judgemental on you, you should just hack care it. seriously. what makes then think that they are better? what makes them judge someone so easily? everyone makes mistakes. and nobody shares the same character traits as you. just because you dislike the way people carried out themselves, doesn't mean that you have to make life hard for them. you duno wad you are doing. you are destroying someone's day. jus becus you are selfish, judgemental, you make someone miserable by giving them a ' i dislike you' or a ' i think you are an idiot' kinda expression. seriously, you are the one that should feel bad about yourself, as you didnt think before you act. besides, is your tolerance level as tiny as an atom or wad? people do something wrong, you say. character wise, you also say. do this, you say. do that, you also say. what makes you think that you are better? the very thing that makes you not a better person is the fact that you are judgemental and you gossip like the world only circulate around you and your way of thinking. you think that person A is selfish and an attention seeker, it doesnt mean that person B will think that way. and it also doesnt mean that person A is doing that on purpose. think before you say anything, think before you act. you can destroy a person's day simply by one word. and i can describe this type of person with one word, 'selfish'.

treasure your time on this very earth. as there is only one lifetime to spend. life is wisely or unwisely, you choose. dun ever regret your decision, as you are the one who made it.