why?

2010-07-27T06:07:00.000-07:00

feel like blogging today!!!!!!!!!

ok life is like a train ride for me nowadays. work, studies, work, studies.. [=
but it's alright, even though i got complaint at times, i kinda like my work. it feels like i am finally doing something about my life to make it better.. [earning money to do wadever i wanna do]
though its mad hectic due to oncoming tests, i believe i can do it! yay!

let's talk about today! i'm quite proud about myself today! finally re-enter gym after many months of absents from those machines..
i do not want to deprive myself from getting fit just because i have a weak heart. i just have to do it in moderation! and rest if i feel like i reach my limit...
did running, some weight lifting, leg thingy, sit ups and a set of exercise? i dunoo wad's that call but it's very efficient! i couldnt walk down the stairs for the rest of the day! but wad makes me happy is that i manage to complete it, although i could have done better at the last part.
hope that i can go gym almost every tuesday! [=

well nowadays i've been trying to stop thinking so much. regardless of some attitude changes, or some problems, i will not let it affect me. things will only affect you if you let it through your door. i saw u through the door pinhole and i decided to shut the door with a thousand locks.. let my inner me live in peace!! [=

2010-06-27T03:48:00.000-07:00

firstly, wanna congratulate my uncle and my da jiu mu for their marriage yesterday!!! wish u both zao sheng gui zi!!! [=[=

yesterday was a SUPER LONG DAY! woke up at 6am in the morning to prepare.. reached grandma house at around 8am plus..
wedding dinner starts at around 8pm and my cousins and i was the receptionist.. the food was great!!!
after the wedding, my cousins, sis, their husbands/bfs, bro and me when to clarke quay~~
at first we wanted to go to a pub.. but after that we went to the arena for clubbing instead~~
had lots of fun!! dancing, playing the disc game, drinking.. BUT if would have been a great night if i didnt puke in the toliet, outside the arena, and below my house. wtf. damn drowzy and damn gg.
first time when clubbing, well nt a bad experience but i swear i wont drink so much again.. wtf.

2010-05-13T07:57:00.000-07:00

exhausted~~ today's a long day!!

i am down with fever, cough and flu.. yesterday was much worst! but felt alot better now [;

today went to sch at 12pm for practicals.. i think this prac is much easier than retinoscopy~ at least i no need to concentrate as much.. especially when i am dying with flu and fever..
after practicals, had lunch with my friends and went to katong to sing karaoke with them..
seriously i think the karaoke is very worth it as it only cause $8 dollars for a small room. the facilities are great! they had a touch screen for you to choose your songs from.
i love the part when we are all singing "peng you" together!! felt really bonded and glad that i had such great friends to hang out with~
if only i am feeling better today.. i was coughing non stop! the weather is seriously bad this few weeks. i really wonder if this is a sign that the earth is ending at 2012.. in the past, there werent so many rainy seasons around this period.. however right now, a sunny sky can just turn dark in a few minutes..

tmr is friday!! really look forward to seeing the garrulous again!! finally its friday~~
oh and once its friday, means saturday is coming!!! time for rest and sleep! [=[=[=

just had my medication, and i am feeling drowsy~ time for bed!!!
goodnite!! [=

2010-05-04T06:12:00.000-07:00

well, just found out something interesting!
somebody called me rude! well not exactly called, but that person wrote about it. well, i personally found the post interesting. the best post i ever seen in that person's blog actually, hence before this it's full of that person writing about the same subject about how good her life is. it's nice bit of a change to write something like that. hey, i am honoured!

well anyways, needed to clarify something.
yesterday i didnt wear contact len, nor am i wearing specs. my contact lens had a scratch and i cant wear it anymore. damn maxi eye brand is damn useless.
so i am walking towards the toliet after gems, and i saw someone who looks like that person. i wasnt sure if it's her, hence i didnt smile and looked away. it's only when she walked near that i realise it's really her. well, apparently she found it "rude" for someone to ignore her. and has to bitch about things all the way back to the past and shoot me. wonder who is the crude and rude one here??

but i admit, alright i am in the wrong.. if you are the one who walked pass me and ignored me, i would confirm bitch about you as well. hence, i dun blame you.

however, the way you describe me tempts me to shoot you back! you made my day more interesting!
well cyber stead? i was in sec one or two at that time.. of cus i am interested in knowing what relationship is like.
and one thing~~ if i am a bimboo, what the hell are you?? bitch? well the way you behave suits that word perfectly! congratulation!
wooh and hey gal, please dun compare me with you. it's insulting! if i chiobu then u my laobu? eek! please dun insult my mother..
oh and i do not need your forgiveness nor your invitation to visit your blog... i visit anybody's blog anytime i like...
well, i wonder who the hell invented the phrase "fuck yourself with a penknife". you made me laugh! try it yourself bitch [= such a creative comment coming from someone in art course.

well, really glad that i saw your post!! was feeling bored, thanks for keeping me entertain so damn late in the night~~

warning??? wow so fierce! i am scared! someone help me!!

well that's all!! might meet each other in school again! i will be sure to SMILE at you!!
ciao!!

2010-04-29T06:01:00.000-07:00

well, it's been awhile since i last blogged. my last post was on nov 2009, which is about 5 months ago.. finally entered second year of poly, modules are getting more interesting and i finally feel that the school fees that my parents paid are worth it.. no unrelated subjects like our nation our world and report writing and presentation~~

this two days the sports hall, moberly and the outside of foodcourt five are super crowded. the cca fair is ongoing~ i joined 6 ccas. 1) SPcyclist 2) Adventure Club 3) Rovers Scout 4) WakeBoarding 5) Chinese music and cultural club 6) Japanese Cultural Club
I wanted to have a vary to choose from, hence i signed up at many places. well, currently in the process of making my life more interesting than playing auditionsea for 12 hours a day.
seriously, i wonder how i am going to participate in the event on 9may with the SPcyclist.. i do not really know how to ride on a mountain bike, and if i have to ride it on the event, well wish me luck.

ok i want to have a long post today. as i am seriously bored to the maximum. just going to write whatever shit i can think of.
well, having lots of practicals nowadays. learnt how to measure people's visual acuity and how to use a retinoscope to measure people's VA. seriously it's very interesting. i hope more people are educated in what optometrist does.. it's a profession that benefits people. an optometrist doesnt just prescribe glasses, they help to detect eye disease and help to refer to the eye care specialise.
seriously, if optometrist doesnt exist, who will be there to help people who needs help in proper eye care? eye sight is something that people often take for granted. imagine a life without light, and the fear of knowing that you might never see anything again.. we optometrist are there to help detect your eye problems and disease so that you can see the world better. and one important note, we are not the same as optician. optician cant help patient fit in contact lenses and detect eye disease. not that i do not respect the role of an optician, i do. optician corrects refractive errors so that you can see clearly. how are you going to walk around with refractive problems? you people want to bump into trees?
i am quite pissed off with people who reckon that our profession is just to provide contact lenses and glasses. just because this course is provide in polytechnic doesnt mean that its an easy course and easy job. and people who study in polytechnic are not stupid get it. so what if you are in JC or MI? majority of people who studied on poly can enter MI. and lots of people in poly can enter JC as well. we choose poly as we know what we want to do in life. you people from JC and those people out there, STOP THINKING THAT PEOPLE WHO DIDNT ENTER JC ARE FAILURES AND USELESS. WE JUST CHOOSE NOT TO. today when i got into the lift. one auntie ask me if today no school, but i say i just gotten back from school. she ask " you from poly ah?" i say ya then she give me a face that totally shows that she looks down on me. damn you people.
oh you people out there are insulting our professions so please understand what optometry is all about before opening your mouth saying that we are just here to give contact lenses and glasses. if you dont appreciate and look down on the job of an optician and optometrist, why dont you go correct your own refractive error, detect and solve your eye related problems by yourself?

and lastly, this message is specially dedicated to the people who looked down on me. well i doubt you will read my blog anyway, as we only see each other like one or twice a year? oh sorry, do you even understand english? anyways, here it goes: one day, i am going to earn even more money than you. i'm going to make you regret that you ever look down on me and my family. so what you think you are better? well, for your information, people that are judgemental like you will never ever succeed in life. you, who judge and treat people in terms of money and education is the fake-est among the fakers. the way you look at me and the way you treat me, i will never forget it. thanks alot for all the 'good' times you given me as it motivates me to succeed in life, and be even more successful than you. and by the way, i choose to go to polytechnic not because i cant enter any junior colleges. i go to poly because i wanted to learn hands on stuff and not study things that i do not like. get this information nailed into your brain. i can enter the science stream of JJC too, got it? for your info, my mother is the best person i have ever meet on earth. how dare you treat her that way? stop being so childish. you should reflect upon yourself, a mere 18 year old girl reckons that you are childish. seriously, your brain hasnt grown one bit. so what if you have more education? does that makes you a better person? if you ask me, i think that education takes up too much of your brain capacity and hence makes you even dumper. you say that i am have a bad personality, hey, what about yours? does ganging up on my mother makes you looked like an angel? by the way, you judge me and said that i have a bad character based on what? the day i ran after my mother and you pulled me back and i cried? hey, i was just a kid. and after that, we rarely seen each other. so meeting every twice per year is enough for you to judge me, who the hell do you think you are?

ok i do not know why i wrote all this shit. was just thinking about some stuff when i suddenly remember all this and i got really pissed off. some people need to reflect upon their own personality before saying others. seriously.. stop being a bitch or a bastard.

2009-11-18T05:17:00.000-08:00

ok spend about 2 hours webcaming yinghwee~~~ as you can see, we are mad.. [= thanks gal! cheer me up alot!

today's a bad day. seriously bad day and tmr isnt better. mother going surgery and i need to go sch. great. hope everything will be fine seriously... ok i am super pissed now. my brother dunno my mother going surgery. great ah? tmd. slap your ass man. play wad computer. too bad today i seriously in bad mood. na bei. fucking shit ass. learn wad is call "care" will you? knn.

hope tmr wont be a bad day. i predicted that i will be, not becus of my mother surgery but something else. but pls, shut your damn mouth. i have enough on my mind to care about your bullshit so pissed off sucker.

seriously i dread tmr. pls pls pls let my mother be alright.

2009-10-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY! meet up with the garrulous again~ havent seen them for a week! woo~~ and candice and cherrie do not wan to take photos. dunno why. the pic above, i think i look like ghost.

ok this whole week. monday was okay. tuesday was ok as well cus no school. hectic days starts on wednesday when there's cousin's wedding. hence i lack slp! thursday i feel like a zombie. friday... wad motivates me is that i am meeting the gals~~ !!

anyways... i dunno wad to blog about. cant post the wedding pics yet cus nobody uploaded it. bzbz.. ok i freaking tired. night~! oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENNETH MAK in my class~~!!

2009-10-26T09:14:00.000-07:00

here to blog again. it's 1214am now and i am still here! == woo tmr no sch again.

wednesday's coming! my cousin getting married on that day! woo! really happy for them. been tgt for 10 years and now getting married![= shall post the pics as soon as i get them. i like to see brides and grooms lol. i think really when you put on that wedding dress and suit, it means you are tying a knot together and telling everybody that you wish to spend your life with that one person. so sweet!

hope that they are the most blessed husband and wife! so till then!

2009-10-16T10:17:00.000-07:00

when out with the girls today~~ our usual friday, except that it's the last friday of our holidays.
saw meiyean today! the last time since i seen her was after olevel results release day. really happy to see my ex-classmate! let's go out someday ok! [=

Whether it’s the best of times or the worst of times, it’s the only time we’ve got.
Art Buchwald

whether you are going through good or bad times, it's still part of life. so treasure every part of it as even a century of life is too short. and ppl seldom live till a 100.

If there is a future there is time for mending-Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.
Life is never hopeless however great your sorrow-If you're looking forward to a new tomorrow.
If there is time for wishing then there is time for hoping-When through doubt and darkness you are blindly groping.
Though the heart be heavy and hurt you may be feeling-If there is time for praying there is time for healing.So if through your window there is a new day breaking-Thank God for the promise, though mind and soul be aching,
If with harvest over there is grain enough for gleaning-There is a new tomorrow and life still has meaning.

author unknown

looking at inspiring quotes and short stories today. wow. really helped me alot. why waste time worrying about tommorrow when the alternative is to spend the time happily and worries free? even if you worry about tommorrow, tmr will still come. and you can worry about it when the time comes.

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.

even in the darkness shines the stars... there is always a way to lead us back home~~

If life gives you lemons, make lemonade. (Joan Collins)

even in sour hours, adapt and learn to find the joy in life. jus like drinking lemonade, it's sour, but after drinking for awhile, you adapt the taste and start to find that even the sour can taste good.

There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm.
J.H Vincent

you will only truly enjoy what you have got after your work hard for it.

Remember sadness is always temporary. This, too, shall pass.
Chuck T. Falcon

everything in life will eventually comes to an end. sadness wont stay with you forever, as besides this, life has things that are much more enjoyable.

i really reckon i should look at all this quotes every single day to remind myself that life is good! ok, gtg sleep now. it's 3.32AM and i havent bath yet..

==

2009-10-08T05:40:00.000-07:00

felt like blogging. so here i am.

school's starting in less than 2 weeks time.
already gotten used to sleeping for long hours and meeting the gals almost every single day.
need to get use to school life again.
timetable's a great shock.
wonder how i will survive next term.
...

just read a very inspirational quote from someone's blog. really make me make up my mind not to care. people might say this is running away, but i know better than to care about idiots.
just had a conversation with gladys on msn and seriously, i hope that dreams can become reality in the years to come. nothing is impossible, right?!

2009-09-19T05:44:00.000-07:00

woo.. this few days had great fun. went to marina darrage with the garrulous for picnic. didnt when too well, machiam rain then no rain then rain again... then got ppl marriage taking photo there... sibei romantic. the scenery's great! especially at night. but ppl going picnic better dun go at night if you dun wanna kana become the food instead for the ants, etc... ok got alot of pics but sibei lazy upload so forget it. anyways at night walk to esplanade rooftop eat things bought from makan sutra. had a great talk with the gals and then went home. woo!

ok yesterday night didnt manage to get much sleep and i am f-ing tired now. cbljknn.
gtg slp now.
NIGHT

2009-09-04T08:17:00.000-07:00

err...super blur?rachel and her hairband resting on wall.. ==

gladys trying to show off her shiny tights and leg. ==

me trying to show ppl how long my hand is. ==
woo!! after the amazingly F*** hard exam, it's HOLIDAY AND I AM ENJOYING IT!

when out with my favourite galfrens.

meet rachel and gladys and when to ion and bugis.

meet miss cherrie the kindergarden teacher at bugis.

walked over to haji lane. ==

didnt even take one photo there. so many ppl siah. abit scary.

then go back to jurong point my hometown. ==

meet candice..

then eat dinner walk walk then go home.

WOO monday and tuesday i looking forward to it!

MONDAY!

going to army open house!

TUESDAY!

going to see gundam model all this!! and chat with KARMEN TAN with my FAV ANIME AND MANGA! WOO HOO!

ok it's ikw 2 am now and i am super tired. F i havent even bath yet. kao.

2009-09-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

the only reason why i am blogging now is 1) i manage to convince myself that resting is good for my brain and i can continue tmr when i only started studying like half an hour ago? ==

aiya, wtf la. jus read my bro's blog and found out how much relax he is now even when he is in
NS. envy sia. but he bia three years liao... finally rest... wow i hope three years can pass by fast. seriously...

well. math paper.. i seriously dunno how i had done. cus i knw i made many idiotic mistake. kao.
anatomy. some know how to do, some totally is ' wtf i got study this before meh?' lol. first thing come out of exam room tell my poly frens i DUNNO HOW TO DO. yeah. not acting humble or wadever shit. is really dunno. kao. but hope can pass lol. three years enough for me i dun wan be drag back. ==

then now left with the most impt paper... GENOPTS. PING AH!

ok now i needa explain myself. ps if i seems zhuai/zai. cus if i am stress or nervous or walking pass ppl i obviously know but act dunno, i will lidat. cus i dunno how to react. aiya dunno how to explain la. to me is natural reaction. cant expect me to smile all the time right. siao.

recently life is quite tense on the inside. trying to force myself not to think. cus i am the type who think alot, then evaluate and make the thing seems worst when it might not be the case. but i seriously hope that wad i am trying not to think about doesnt even exist in the first place. ah~ when holidays come, TWO DAYS LATER, i am gonna enjoy man~! WOOSH!

2009-08-20T21:22:00.001-07:00

ok, the only reason why i am here blogging NOW is 1) I AM SLACKING.

ok, a few hours later, ben xiao jie going to have math exam/test. wadever la. and i have been inform by the lecturer in front of the entire class that if i fail this exam, i will fail the module, as i am a borderline passer. yeah. no stress man~ no stress.

wth? now i needa relax. or else wadever that enter my brain will fly out like my money in my f.bank.

who says poly not stress. poly is stress if u dun know how to manage your time well and play more then u be a noob and study. ok i really cAnnot afford to fail this test. bless me man. i got study ok. pray that the qns not so hard and chim. like wtf la math. after today, i wont touch math again. WOOSH.

ok gtg. wtf.

2009-08-13T05:10:00.000-07:00

there's something wrong with blogger recently, but, nvm.

seriously stressed nowadays, with tests following by exams. most worried about math and anatomy. chapters after chapters to study and i havent touch one page of anatomy. congratulations to me yeah. really hope that i can at least pass. failing is not an option.

life's totally not boring nowadays. had things on my mind every now and then. what hits me most is the realisation that exams are weeks later and i havent prepare it yet. weeks, not months. and the modules are real kick ass that can kill me straight. well, wish me luck~

hope holidays can come faster, cause there's tones of things that i want to do. watch dramas, movies, shopping with frens, etc. guess i will be quite busy this few weeks with studies. hell. all that's motivating me is the fact that holidays are coming.

2009-08-04T02:42:00.000-07:00

stress up. test, test, test. tommorrow got general optics test. counted in CA. wtf? then friday got biochem. counted also. wtfh. shouldnt be blogging. - - slack ah~~~

si mi lan jiao. study study. kao your ljcb. my clever brain jam alrdy. wtf. later end up in hao gang hotel then u know. wah liao eh. dun even know wtf i am studying. too bad i choose this course on my own accord. cblj. feel like burning the paper then go drink sia. jia sai la.

ok needa go back to learn the sai jang. wtfwtf.

2009-07-31T07:58:00.000-07:00

regrets. life is filled with so much regrets. on friendships, family, etc. i done many wrong things, and only now i am looking back, regreting. i am such an idiot. an arsehole.

there is only a lifetime for you go live, and you either live it wisely, or live it stupidly. Wisely [ not having any regrets when you are on your deathbed] stupidly [ only start to regret on things when it's too darn late]

it's your own life, you choose.

every sec, every minute, time is passing by. this seconds adds up to a minute, and a minute adds up to hours, and hours adds up to one full day. time is something that is priceless. right now, while i am typing, i am using up minutes of my time. this minutes will not come back to me again. right now, it's 12.14 am. there is only one 2/8/2009 in your entire life. only one time are you going to see a 12.14 am on this day. it's priceless. you can either choose to waste this 12.14 am doing stuffs you will regret, or spend this time in a more meaningful way, like smsing a lost friend. some people may think that they have lots of time, they have all the time in the world. but let's put it this way. everyday, you wasted some of your time doing stupid stuffs like self pitying, etc. all this wasted time, if you add them up together, you have not just wasted a few minutes, you have wasted years. life is too short, far too short. it seems like just yesterday, i am still a secondary student. but in reality, i am already an adult. time flys, every single moment of your life, time is ticking. it never stops. while you sleep, time is still ticking. you are getting older and older every second, and you are aging continuously. you never know when your heart will fail you. life is too short. so start pursuing your dreams, put actions into words, dont wait until the next day, as the next day might be too late. there is only one life, live it happily.

today i looked back to the past. regrets came up more then happiness. i am too self centered. basically, i think too much about myself. how people treat me, how people judged me, wad people think about me, me me me me me. ones, i got into depression as i managed to convince myself that i am hated by everyone, and i am the victim. slap me, everyone. i should have known better, why circulate my thoughts only around myself. i am selfish.
there will always be people out there who are judgemental. who do not like you as who you are. who think that you are fake even when you just behave like who you are. this are people who do not understand you. people who understand you, if they treat you differently as well, then it's time to change. but people whom you just known, or you only exchange some conversations, are judgemental on you, you should just hack care it. seriously. what makes then think that they are better? what makes them judge someone so easily? everyone makes mistakes. and nobody shares the same character traits as you. just because you dislike the way people carried out themselves, doesn't mean that you have to make life hard for them. you duno wad you are doing. you are destroying someone's day. jus becus you are selfish, judgemental, you make someone miserable by giving them a ' i dislike you' or a ' i think you are an idiot' kinda expression. seriously, you are the one that should feel bad about yourself, as you didnt think before you act. besides, is your tolerance level as tiny as an atom or wad? people do something wrong, you say. character wise, you also say. do this, you say. do that, you also say. what makes you think that you are better? the very thing that makes you not a better person is the fact that you are judgemental and you gossip like the world only circulate around you and your way of thinking. you think that person A is selfish and an attention seeker, it doesnt mean that person B will think that way. and it also doesnt mean that person A is doing that on purpose. think before you say anything, think before you act. you can destroy a person's day simply by one word. and i can describe this type of person with one word, 'selfish'.

treasure your time on this very earth. as there is only one lifetime to spend. life is wisely or unwisely, you choose. dun ever regret your decision, as you are the one who made it.

2009-07-23T06:00:00.000-07:00

life's boring to the extreme right now. and i am always finding some stuff to think about when i am bored.
humans are hard to please. when you are in a bad situation, you hope that you can live your life more peacefully. but when you are living your life peacefully, you get bored. and start to think about any thing under the damn sun to worry about.
well, that's me. i reckon i always think to much. my brain cells are dying of ' bloody thinking mindset problem' as use up too much space to think about stupid shitass problems. = =

today found out something. ok quite disappointing. seriously. voice it out alright? what's your damn bloody problem? what the hell do you want ah? and what the hell did i do? kao. damn pissed i tell you. i dun even know wad the bloody shit happened. ccb.

anyways, i dun know what the fcuking shit is wrong with my damn mood now. ka na sai. squeeze shit into your cb ah. kao.

2009-07-18T20:58:00.000-07:00

stuck in the house, stuck in the bloody damn house for 3 days?

ok la, i went out with gladys to watch harry potter. DAMN NICE!
previous movies of harry potter, i think daniel ra(wadever his name) acted soso.
but this season, wow! nice~! and it's quite funny as well.
parts of the book been cutted out. but the movie is still great without it.

meet the garrulous after the show. really appreciate it that they dun mind meeting us.
but had to go home early.. really sorry ya!

seriously in NO mood to study at all. simply bored to death.
nothing to DO AT ALL F.ING SHIT ASS.
rewatched constantine, harrypotter and the f.ing stone, re-read harrypotter and the deathy hallows, twilight, played dunno how many times auditionSEA...................................... WTF~ I DUNNO I DO SO MANY BO LIAO THINGS. CB KNN TMD!
aiya studying = a slow cruel process of torturing the students ( study + dying) according to the urbandictionary. so shall not touch books for the time being. kao eh. cblj. study so much, in the end also will end up where? the damn wooden rectangle boxs. ==

ok la dun crap liao. wtf now below my house gt one guy talking damn loud in dnuno wad fucking language. i live fouth floor also can hear until machiam he right beside me. DIAM LA. CCBLJ. I CHOP YOUR DAM LJ THEN U KNOW.

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2009-07-16T06:07:00.000-07:00

well, todays a GREAT SHIT ASS day. firstly, had anatomy lesson. watched a clip that's as scary as " imagining yourself peeing on the chair infront of a class of 100". it's about heart thingy. scared the shit out of me. next, chem lesson. had no idea what on earth the lecturer's talking about. then break. then woohoo? another GOOD like shit news?
" my class is now under QUARRANTINE."

wow. think on the positive side man. no school! sleep late! but negative side? DAMN I HAVE TO STAY AT HOME. my damn plan for the week is CANCELLED. cool man? tommorrow i am suppose to meet the garrulous, but then now? cancel. have to be a damn shit ass who have to be responsible and stay at home, as i might be a carrier of the damn shit ass flu. should not be selfish and go out with the possibility of spreading the damn virus around. and damn i wanted to watch harry potter. now? CANCELLED. this pisses me off damn hell much. i AM going to watch it as long as i am officially declared " FREE OF THE DAMN KNS FLU". the movie better DON'T be as disappointing as the previous few.

ok, even though i am pissed, on the other hand, glad that no school. i am in serious need of sleep. and i am lagging behind my studies. shall use the time to study. and i am NOT blaming people who got the flu. it's not their fault. there are far too many cases around. hope that she can recover fast.

ok. complain offically finished. ok sorry i wrote an essay again. ==

2009-07-13T04:56:00.000-07:00

monday blues. today's kinda a bad day for me. it's was alright at first, but till the end, it just became a total lousy day. looks and expression you gave a person can either brighten their day, or totally spoilt it.

after school, when for a walk around my neighbourhood on my own. watched the kids playing around in the playground. then i start to wonder, ' i used to be just like those children, enjoying themselves and playing until your mum brings you home." it's kinda amazing, to think that i used to be a child. when you grow up, you started to face more and more problems to the point that it's almost amazing to think that you used to be young, innocent, and happy. i remember that i used to be part of the scene, playing around with other children of my age when i was young. but it's like recalling someone else's memories. the happy faces, i used to be so carefree. that face used to belong to me, but now, when i look into the mirror, i cant find any resemblance towards the young happy gal face, and mine. we are supposed to be the same person. but the carefree looked seemed to be buried deep inside, in somewhere i cant find.

i guess this is part of life as well. worries, problems, saddness, etc.... like i say, ups and downs in life. people cant expect to find themselves in a favourable situation all the time. and i have to accept this fact.

some people live their lifes thinking about all the unhappiness that they encounter, while others spend their time thinking about those people who care for them, love them, and will always, stay by their side.

when met with unhappiness, think about the fact that at least, you are not alone. there are people who loves you. dont ever neglect those people and hold them close to you.

dun neglect the diamonds on the floor just to pick up a stone.

2009-07-11T21:10:00.000-07:00

yesterday

morning when out with my mother. accompany her to see doctor. then meet cherrie. when to orchad and bugis. not feeling too well, so when home early. cherrie when to my house and we enjoyed seeing some cute and nice PHOTOS! YEAH! [=

today

boring. nothing to do. later going gekpo alone for awhile.

when the whole world says you fail,
*hope whispers give it another try [ ying hui send this to gladys and she sent it to me]

i like this. really. but sometimes, hope, it's kinda hard to hold on to it. hope is something that people wish and wait, so that maybe someday, their dreams can come true. but waiting is hard. believing is even harder. people hope for things to happen, but what's there to support your 'hope' when you cant see any light in the infinity? hoping is hard, the process itself is toturing. giving up is easy. you just have to put things down and just close your eyes to things around you. sure this is demolarising. but not everyone is strong within. not everyone can close their eyes and walk on a string, believing that they can make it to the other end. some people just stayed at point A and refuse to go a step ahead to point B. the journey itself is enough to tired yourself to the extreme.

however, giving up. you never know what your decisions may bring you. you may be giving up on a lifetime of happiness. you may be giving up on a dream that hard work and time can bring. sure the process of waiting in unknown is scary. but it's this process that makes the 'dream come true' worth well, isnt it? not seeing any light in the infinity. it's natural. as this is life. life is no movie or a play. there's no script written. we are the script writters ourselves and we choose. it is hard. but if there's something that you want, you work hard for it. when everyone says that you cannot make it, you persever on. if you cant even do that, i think this dream of yours values little is your heart. if you fail after all the million tries, at least you know that you tried. and you didnt give up, it's jus that it's time to move on. and if you succeed, you can always look back, and you will appreciate the things that you hold on to more. the toturing process becomes a prove that you hold on to your dreams even in the toughest times.

right now, i guess i will hold on to 'it'. giving up is not in my choice right now. sure, i might end up getting hurt real deep, but i dont like giving up to the unknown, not knowing what i am really giving up on. life is a gamble, people wins and lose.

2009-07-08T05:25:00.001-07:00

Gotten back two of my MST results, and it's quite abit disappointing. Cheering myself up that there are ups and downs in life. If life is perfect, who will learn and grow up from their mistakes to become a better person? Seriously, how can one fully matures if they grew up under the comfort and protections of their loved ones, and never know how hard life could be. Maybe linking this to my test results is abit too far fetched. But i am not relating the two matters.

In life, when you are at a young age, you grew up under the protection of your mother and father. When you fall, you can cry out loud and your parents will be there to comfort you. Meals always appears right in front of you without you knowing that each grain of rice represents the hours of your parents' hard work. When you get older, you complained about school, teachers, friends, and even your parents who worked so hard to feed you. When you grow up, you work. You complain about the work being too boring, about your collegues not treating you well, and your boss for some reasons you find to pick on. Life is too short. But amazingly the amount of things we complained about can last as a few centuries. Life is full of complains, seriously. And i put myself in group of people who complains about almost everything.

I seriously think that i need to be satisfied with whatever i have in life right now. I have friends, family, and studies. What do i lack? Why is there this emptyness in my heart? I cant figure out what it is, i dont understand why. Emotions, sometimes i think that emotions is a silent killer. And it betrays you more often than you can count. And the feeling of emptyness....it's undescribable. I do understand that whatever i am complaining about now is just peanuts compared to the stuff that are coming for me when i am offically an adult supporting myself. But sometimes saying and understanding doesnt solve anything. There's no medication for emptyness except filling in the gap. So waiting should be my only choice isn't it? Waiting for the unknown, hoping that the gap can be one day filled in.

Life is too short. People around you dont stay around you forever. They enter your life with a grand entrance, but sometimes exits with no foot steps left behind. People you see today may be gone tomorrow. And who knows went our time on earth will be up. Either be on the death bed thinking about your regrets in life or trying your best to fullfill things that you can achieve with effort put in. Time to treasure everyone around me, and accept the unaccepted. Time to grow up.

2009-07-02T04:06:00.000-07:00

wad should i be doing now? studying. wad was i doing yesterday? studying. the day before yesterday? still studying. wad this means? LIEW EH! and, i think i failed two liao. wow gong xi wo. math? confirm fail. bio? i dunno. i think fail. ==

anyways, got one thing to blog about. i think singaporeans are si bei considerate. yesterday gladys n i on mrt. the mrt officer come in and tell people to let one pregnant lady sit on the priority sit. but wad did the person on the damn chair do? pretend not to hear and listen to earpiece. all i can conclude is 1) you are blind. now mrt even stick a sticker on the priority sit to let those ppl dun dare sit there. 2) typical kiasu. pay money for mrt, stand all the way? bu hua suan. 3) your butt is stick on the chair. kana glued. i admit, i last time also sit on priority sit. but after they put the damn sticker ON THE CHAIR, i dun dare to sit. and even if i did, got pregnant lady, and someone ask me to let her sit, i will stilll let the lady sit. wow i was shock yesterday. not trying to say that i am a very gd person and kindhearted wadever shit. but yesterday was too over. the 20 over people in that area's my witness. and the worst thing is nobody offered the sit somemore. tian ah. singaporean so nice seh. and damn. i am singaporean too. i guess it's not enough to put the sticker on the chair. they should put 'either u are blind or you have a 100m thick skin or worst, both, please sit on the chair. otherwise, kindly reserve the sits for ppl who need it more. [= '

realised i suddenly like to see this kinda thing. == but really tian ah. ok got to go mind my own business and study.

2009-06-28T22:13:00.000-07:00

just reached home. ok and when i was at the msn homepage, i saw something very touching and sad. http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20090628/tap-070-ex-football-heroes-play-charity-231650b.html a little gal got a cancer. and a drug that's worth half a million ( i thinked) can help her to percentage to live increase from 10% to 50%. some football players played for her seek to rise money. http://ourfeistyprincess.com/ <--- i think is the website to see more information to help the gal. anybody interested??? seriously, it's a life, so if there's anybody that has got the power to rise money, pls help.

today's mst was 'wow' . seriously, most things that i studied did NOT came out and i was stoning at the table, dunno wad to do. 50% pass, 50% fail. oh and today, gladys and i super kiasu. we bought dettol instant hand sanitizer. swine flu around the corner. darn. life is too important to have us to kanna swine flu and die. seriously, if people can be more considerate. some uncle jus sneeze right in front of me and didnt even bother to say sorry. at least cover your mouth right? feel like apply dettol on my face. bath straight away at home. er xin man i tell you. worst case is my ex-sec sch got swine flu. that really makes me aware that H1N1 is no laughing matter seriously. why go australia when the flu is around the corner? especially to a country with the virus. and nice, the first secondary sch to duo swine flu. not that i wanna blog about it. but please la, even newspaper have. and the sch is super near my house. well i hope that this swine flu season can pass without any harm done to my friends, family and myself. ok that's all i going to complain. go study maths liao.

2009-06-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

yesterday when out with my fav. galfrens to orchad!!! met up with gladys and rachel later as candice, cherrie and i watch drag me to hell first. when walk walk after that.

took some photos. uploaded a few. group photo~~~ and LOOK AT MY DAMN HAIR? IS LIKE WAD? SHAO BA + MO ZI. damn my damn hair.

THESE PHOTO! ok at first, i was helping rachel and cherrie to take photo. then, an angmo came up to us and volunteer to help us take photo! all the other SINGAPOREANS all jus WALK PASS US. but he came up to volunteer when we nv asked. we were like omg! he's so nice!! wow!

see my damn jacket? machiam look like rubbish seh.

anyways, today afternoon study. then at nite go pasar malam with rachel and gladys. now is 12.02 AM. go slp le. NITE. or MORNING? --

2009-06-13T08:59:00.000-07:00

here to blog.

YESTERDAY, went to NYP to see RACHEL YEOH YING HUI and SOMEONE ELSE with GLADYS HO YEN LING! see rachel! U MORE IMPT, I BOLD YOUR NAME HOR! HAHA! seriously, yesterday gladys and i totally EARN DUO SIA I TELL U! that someone else is TOTALLY OMFG WOOW!! even only see a few seconds also WOW! BUT! PRIORITY IS RACHEL STILL! yeah go her sch then accompany her. wait for her do her project then go makan. then meet the other gals. WOO~ OHOH! SOMEONE SAY I LOOK LIKE SPORTY GAL SEH. SPORTY = SUNSHINE. WOW! == i buay bai one, but WOW!!!! YEAH!

== today whole day at home study for the DAMN MST! fcuk! KNN!
sian la~! WANNA ROT LIAO! and hor, i found out i sibei hum ji seh! dun dare to type HELLO, FCUK! CCB! ok, dun write essay le or else the gals say i write essay everything. LOL!!

2009-06-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

here to blog again~ lazy to upload pic~ SIAN AH~ swine flu got 11 ppl duo already sia. wah liew~ pls la ppl, if u are currently in other country and wanna come back to singapore, DUN, see doctor first! or if you think you kanna swine flu, SEE DOCTOR! pls la even if u dun care for yourself at least give a damn about others la wah liew eh. now great singapore sale somemore, so many people pack together, higher percentage spread la! wah liew~ dun dare go out shop la now, dun say i scary cat hor, it's LIFE ok, who dun give a damn should go see xin li yi sheng. ==

my way of doing things may be harsh, but that's me and i do wadever i think is best. and if i dun do so, i will definitely get back into the same situation i am damn tired of. wadever, it's all over but i HATE it when it all sounds like i am the bad guy here. wu qing wu yi. or wadever shit. = =

HOLIDAYS are coming! means CHALET is coming! MORE SLEEP! WOOHOO~ but also means no pocket money and studying for MST. wah liew eh. but nevermind, it's almost worth it when i get to sleep more~ woosh~! now currently i pass none of the test. sian dao. kao eh. is like the things that i studied is in english, the test come out give me alien language. duh? no LINK~! damn scared la~ scary cannot go year 2 or needa change class, i will DIE man~! modules like anatomy and physicology? completely CMI. from first lesson till now, i dunno wad i learning. and maths, graph? i dun even know how to draw, somemore still wan give me MST. siao siao. k la need to slp liao. or else tmr eyes black like bao jing tian sia. ==

2009-05-22T23:27:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL YEOH YING HUI!!!!!!!

HEYHEY! here to blog again! ok i dunno why my words got underline~ wtf la i am a it noob, hui yun where are u!?? u this it expert. == anyways, yesterday was a super fun day. morning sch as usual. then after that class go out to the stadium to play~~ go food court eat then go play dog game frisbee and suntan ourselves at the stadium cum natural swan-na. super HOT la! can machiam cook EGG~ == heres some pics we took yesterday!

when home after that to change lol. then meet ying hui and hohoho at pioneer mall then go yh house~!~! yeah!!! celebrated RACHEL YEOH'S birthday!! took some photo as well! but havent upload yet! so post tom or the day after tom! anyways, gladys and i reached first! then go online looking for pics and MY FAV BUBBLE TEA PIC~ (inside story ah~~) :) then ray cheer YEOH got piano lessons, so glad and i go hide in yh room. slack ah! wah lao i wan your bed la!! so damn big! cb la! then hy and chair come at about 6 or 7. bought a cake from icing rm... hy cum ghost...wah lao. first thing come scare the hell outta us by saying ghost stories. not jus say but act as ghost as well. cb. go audition for incredible tale la, comfirm can duo one. -= then act dinner at yh house then cut cake. after awhile we left lol. wah yh so sweet seh walk us to busstop. wahahaha~

anyways, that's all for yesterday~!!

give up. that's all you need to do. u have done nth wrong. it's jus that things werent the same anymore.

2009-05-21T05:01:00.000-07:00

today's a long day~ and i am damn tired today! muscle cramp from yesterday's badminton~ yeah! haish american idol ended. and everytime i support the idol sure lose. David.A also lose when i supported him. NOW? ADAM LAMBERT! NO! haish nvm. :[
ok today's chemistry, i fail the test with flying colours. 15/50. yeah~ i am seriously sian right now and cant find anything to entertain myself. = =
seriously, i dunno wad's so bad about not liking boredness and trying to find something to entertain myself. ppl may think i am fake. i dunno. but dudes, that's who i am. neither am i faking nor acting. i am no actress and y should i tired my self by doing so? so pls dun ruin my life for me and i wont ruin yours either. thank you very much. this post is dedicate to a somebody and u should know who u are.

2009-05-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

here to blog. ok i am pissed off rite now. for dunno wadever reason. ok sian. today i at home, i actually studied, omg. ok so wadever. how i wish i now still young, no worries at all. if time would rewind i think i wont chose to be me. but obviously it's impossible. who say's nothing is impossible? i ask u go rewind the time and make me young again, is that possible?
haish... ok i am emo-ing. i know. just quarrel with my mother over a stupid thing and i know i am in the wrong but my skin is jus too thick for me to apologise so~~
sch is ok nowadays. jus i hate the time that i have to wake up. poly life is okay, and i am getting use to it. seriously lagging behind study so i am dead. and seriously 'somebody' is not helping by REPRIMANDING me and ordering me around when 'somebody' gets home. u and your tone, facial expression is seriously pissing me off so if u only can speak to me lidat, then i prefer if u jus shut up.
great, my blog is for me to complain. yeah

2009-05-18T04:41:00.000-07:00

here to blog again. damn, i am dying from the 'oh my f-ing god i dunnno how to do general optics AT ALL' diease. :) = =ll sucker la. today test on this, and hell i dunno how to do. even with OPEN BOOK TEST i only manage to do 3 qns out of 7. and one is i totally copy from my notes. well done jess. lucky i think i not the only one who dunno how to do man. anyways, today is a LONG day. morning got chem, and then the damn general optics, and then break, then got biochem. ok damn the biochem, i am lost = = die man in class i keep dreaming, i think my body in class but my mind in antartica. yeah. maths is worst man, i dun even know wad chapter we are in now man! dunno why need calculator.. i think i know in the back of my mind, but i think i forget also. who says poly can slack? but to a special someone, jc is even more worst. it is 24 hours of non-slacking ok. so your hard work equal to our 3 years of hard work squeeze into 2 years. so i totally dun understand WHY U ARE SO HAPPY THAT JC IS JUS 2 YEARS~ at least now i can play around as well.... no offence to other jc peeps, only saying those who think that poly sucks and jc rocks. which is U. sorry if u happen to read my blog, i am jus saying wad i think as it is MY blog and not yours. free rights, get it!? i can even bet that your situation is ten times worst than mine so shut your big mouth.

2009-05-15T20:21:00.000-07:00

ok finally finish uploading pics. firstly, will like to wish a happy belated birthday to MISSTEE! yesterday morning when to sch as usual. seriously i am out of clothes to wear~ the blue top i was wearing in the pic is my sis's. hell~ i nv tot that i will have to wear her clothes! damn. anyways, after lessons, ate lunch with my crasy classmates!!! i have just adopted eight children yesterday. :)

didnt when to watch movie with them, as there's a hole in my wallet. when to meet up with garrulous~ havent seen them for a week! chat at mac and starbucks and ate dinner with them at subway. there's a kiampa person working there. = = walk walk around john little as well! guess wad we were doing there. related to bao :) anyways, when home at 9 plus.... ok now i am sick...flu cum sore throat. lucky no fever or else i will kill all the pigs in the world. ok lao niang go rest liao...sucker la.

2009-05-06T04:05:00.000-07:00

jus woke up from a nap. lao niang super tired right now seh. like lagging one hundred years of slp lidat. sucker man. i think if i sit in a super long ride bus i confirm slp sia. na bei. now still tired like siao? sucker man. muscle ache man cus carry a super heavy bag? suck.

anyways, today end super early. almost whole class went to marcus house to play. ma de his house is CONDO! then the gals and some guys play captain ball...lao niang so long no play sports lei play super laggy man. aiya, i sucks in sports. = =
after playing the rest go eat i think and me n gladys went home. i super tired and headache. ate mos burger at jp then ji tao chiong home. wah lao lol. ps ah chair n rachel pangseh u all. but lao niang machiam cmi liao if i go i faint man.. LOL. = = sian dao.

getting use to life at poly le. i like general optics! not becus i understand the sub but becus can end like so damn early~! woo~! i like the chem also, cus that's the only sub i know how to do. sucker. then math lao niang is totally cmi. biochem lei? one word, DIE. shit arse. = = lots of catching UP to do. sucks~

2009-05-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

here to blog again!!! lao niang is 'bored' man! hw is 'not' driving me crazy. walking from sp gate to my class is totally 'not' sian-ing me man! :) lol... i am damn tired rite now!! yesterday not feeling well at all...headache and all. today still ok. jus super tired. jus now after sch went home rest awhile then go meet hy and cherrie~ can tell that they are as tired as me man.

right now got what stupid virus. really scared that i will be a victim. hope a cure can be found real fast! everybody take care of yourself ok! fever then dun come near me! flu also! or u jus step on bird shit or eaten pork, all SHOO~ lol...just kidding. really, mus take care of our health~ life is too precious to be taken away by the virus. :) so tc everyone!! :) stay HEALTHY!!

2009-05-01T09:52:00.000-07:00

here to blog again. feeling so tired now. muscle cramp!

yesterday

after school went out with frens lol. ate dinner with them. damn i really miss sec school with them. honestly~ felt that i didnt appreicate the past last time. rite now regret. lol...

today

went out with chair for a run at jurong stadium. wow i think i cannot join sports le, almost fainted. = = after the run went jp for dinner then go home.

wow this whole week almost everyday got meet garroulous man. so COOL! LOL!
kanna scolded by mother cus oways so late go home. = = but nvm! life and freedom is coming to me soon! hope i faster 18 or 19. now oways dreaming of going out at night walk walk shop shop with the garrulous seh. wahahaha. lol... sian la i dunno wad to do lol.. = = family n relative going over sea later but i no go. no mood. cus LEG PAIN! MUSCLE CRAMP! haish...sian~~

and oh i found this song. BREATHE by taylor swift. tootpid imeem only allow 30 seconds for blog songs. = = love the song! i think her voice really very nice lor!
LYRICS~~
I see your face in my mind as I drive away'
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see'
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breatheWithout you, but I have toBreathe
Without you,
but I have toNever wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breatheWithout you, but I have toBreathe
Without you, but I have toIt's two a.m.,
feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me,
oh
I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
BreatheWithout you, but I have to
BreatheWithout you, but I have to
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorryI'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

2009-04-29T02:10:00.000-07:00

here to blog again. so far this week is a disastrous week for me. hope it will get better. right now feeling very tired. went for cca 'trial' whereby if you are inexperience or lousy they just hack care about you. f? dun wanna talk about it. so anyways, luckily friday no school, or else i am really gonna burst. ok la, sch was still ok. found out that i kept on crapping rubbish. should lessen my crappyness. = = and today badminton, i macchiam cmi. i dunno why everytime i play sports i very feat up. during badminton i cannot properly strive one, like i ant gonna hit the shuttle. i think i not suitable for sports bah cus of my impatient personally. but who care! i wanna join water sport. more fun. maybe can on the way llearn swimming also..lol.

right now i dunno wad i am feeling. tired? sleepy? bored? weird? i dunno. do some people give a damn? i dunno. but who will give a damn? who cares man? shit it. life is not about true or untrue, believing or not trusting. it is about actions. and the same goes for other things. words are just crappy shit that are form out of letters. i can type out I HATE YOU to someone and be laughing my shit ass off, playing april fool with that person letting them believing that i hate them to the core. wad can u know out of words? answer is nothing, as you will never know what they are actually thinking of and feeling at that time. it is first actions, then to true or untrue, then believing or not believing.
past is a very important thing. people will look into your past and determine wad kinda person you are. a good to the core person, a flirty shit ass, a bitch, etc. with a bad reputation, i dare say that it's kinda hard to get people to trust you. and sometimes being too good will arise questions.

ok, i dunno why i typing these out. but i jus type out what i feel. that's all. shit everything.

2009-04-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

hey hey here to post again. yeah my birthday. wahahaha. a day to qiao zha people with a perfect reason. :) thanks ppl for your birthday wishes! lurve u all!~
today morning got lecture plus tutorial. super boring! biochemical lei. i one shit also dun understand. havent even teach the things ask us do tutorial. duh? how i know? i macchiam cmi la i tell u. then i spend two hours got 'dunno wad i am learning' shit.
after the lec n tutorial, my class sing bdae song for me. THANKS ALOT! XIE XIE NI MEN!~~ thanks my shiny crystal n ran away randi for initating. yeah~~~ ps jus i oways no go class uting. hope next one i can go! be BONDED TO THE CLASS MAN. WAHAHAHA~!!

anyways today i had a fun day! nice birthday!!~ WOOSH~!! thanks cherrie and RACHEL' for peiing me today while i waiting. lurve u guys!! thanks for the expensive bear!!! wahahaa~!! :) and thanks garrulous for the super creative cake!!! and the necklace!! thanks alot!

2009-04-17T11:04:00.000-07:00

do you understand that wad i wan is not u accusing yourself, then saying all you did was useless. but to CONSIDER MY FEELINGS AND UNDERSTAND HOW I FELT. do you even understand? did you try? did you even ask questions? do you really treasure me or even truly loved me? i am a gal, and i needa secure. not by saying, but by actions. not by gifts. i am not so cheapo till i only wan gifts. i wan to feel that i am truly love. do you understand? i dun understand wad kinda person u r so i dunno if u are someone i can trust. 2 months of only smsing and meeting for minutes, how to know u well? how to know if can trust u?!

HERES SOME PHOTOS I TOOK TODAY WHEN I WENT OUT WITH FRUIT CHAIR..WAHAHA!

FIRST STOP

-meet edwin cus chair want tapepistry.

SECOND STOP

-meet chair's friend cus need give her GB badge cus her fren need.

THIRD STOP

-BUGIS!

went to bugis to eat KATONG LAKSA! SUPER HOT AND SPICY SEH! NICE! even ANGMO eat lei!! i dunno they also eat LAKSA one lor!!

then went to bugis street. saw so many clothes on my wanted list but no point cus I HAVE NO MONEY. NO MONEY ALL YOU CAN DO IS GO MAC DRINK PLAIN WATER. so GEK SIM cus i really wanted the high wiast skirt but it's 15 dollars. i only got 10 dollars. OHOH, ACTUALLY GOT 20 DOLLARS BUT I SO KIND SOUL DONATED 3 DOLLARS TO SOME POOR GUYS WHO ARE HAVING FLAP DAY. THE REST SPEND ON TRANSPORT CUS FUCKING I GOT 2 DOLLARS LEFT ON MY EZLINK CARD BUT CANNOT USE?! NA BEI WANNA EAT OUR FUCKING MONEY SO MUCH. ok back to topic. so must save up for my CLOTHES!

FORTH STOP
-Far East

WOOSH! when far east WALKWALK! saw so many high waist skirt. na bei temptation= = but all so expensive. got one $25 somemore. eat money. far east like not very fun, so sian lor nth to do one...oh and i realise that i am OUT OF FASHION! fruit tell me so many names of clothes and shoes stuff but i didnt found those words in my dictionary. na bei la..needa keep a close check on fashion liao. kao. even though only can see no touchy touchy u noe~~ cus no money u noe~ {america accent} LOL~

FIFTH STOP

-taka cum outside ngee ann city

go into taka to buy bread. then sit in front of the fountain in front of ngee ann city.. go there OBSERVE ppl. some ppl really full of confidence seh. they fashion sense is so extrodinary. = =

chair n i take so damn lot of zhi lian picture seh. waha. then we sit there untill sky goes dark.
then na bei lor, got one couple sit in front of me, KISSING! kao eh i dunno look where lor! wan kiss go other place la, do in front of lao niang, wan me video down isit. na bei.

anyways, then we call gladys, SHE CMI LA! GO SCREAM SOMEMORE, PPL TOT SHE KANNA RAPE AH. LOL

actually wanna go walk walk at ngee ann city, but tmd i cmi la. inside all the shop i see also no see before.. fcuk. ALL BRANDED GOOD. I THINK DUN EVEN HAVE MAC LOR NO FREE DRINKS FOR ME TOO. ARSE LA.

and on the way back to jp, chair and i siao one. we pretend to be ABC. we speak in america accent lor I LAUGH LIKE SHIT! i think some people really believe. and in the mrt, we speak loud loud, say wad we live in SAN FRANSICO(ma de i dun even know hhow to spell somemore!)

and ppl actually looked at us! SO FUCKING FUNNY!

LAST STOP

-JUROONG POINT

wow, this is the first time i so late still go explore jp. we go jp mac slack. then chair treat me ice cream lei XIE XIE NI AH! then chat chat lol...then go fair price extra.. then OH, WE SAW MAGGIE MII! then GUESS WAD! WE HUNGRY MA, THEN WE GO KOPEITIAM STEAL CHOP STICK AND SPOON. the kopeitiam got NO PEOPLE ONE. ALL STALLS ARE CLOSED AND SUPER WU LU LOR! we so QIANG SEH! then we eat at the kopeitiam lor. eat our maggie mee. then wanna drink water, we go STEAL the plastic cup from the drinks stall then fill water from the "press water area?" dunno how to say la...l0L! man LOVE IT MAN! LOL~! then we chiong eat cus wanna 12 le then no bus we ton at jp liao~ = = LOL! then took some photos too!!

yeah! that's all!! WOOSH! tom going out with garrulous! my leg is rotting but i am LOVING IT!

2009-04-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

HERE TO BLOG AGAIN! I LURVE MY POLY MAN! ASK LAO NIANG GO WALK THE WHOLE QUEENSTOWN TO BEG PPL FOR MONEY! THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO EXPRESS MY KIND SOUL TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO DONATED GENEROUSLY, AND TO THOSE WHO JUST LOOK AT ME AS IF I AM A MONSTER, AND TO THOSE WHO EITHER DIAO ME OR IGNORED ME! THANK YOU VERY MUCH! =.=ll

yeah my mouth is rotting! SPEND THE WHOLE DAY CRAPPING WITH LIANG JING JING DE CRYSTAL, HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS, AH HAO HAO JIE SAO, AH LING AH LING AH LING, AND MINMIN(sorry, i cracked my brain but cant find a beautiful wonderful nickname for you.) WAHA!

dunno my brain today isit siao oready mouth cannot close wan, crap non stop...damn~! oh my xiao liang jing jing! LOL! crapped with my poly frens today non stop, super FUN! hope this will continue for the next three or five years i am in sp. i think i am gonna end up in mental hospital at the end of it, say till siao zha bo liao~

real sorry about today's incident. i didnt know she was there until i saw her...dui bu chi, and xie xie ni~

2009-04-14T01:37:00.000-07:00

when walk walk with the girls on easter day! woohoo~!! as usual it was FULL OF CRAPPING! and something REAL OMFG happened! anyways, had lots of fun~! i bought a new wallet and a laptop bag on that day too!

had orientation yesterday~! everything were interesting except the talks~~ i enjoyed the hiphop dance!!! and the modern dance~~ got to know some new frens as while~! as OPENNESS is SP
'CORE' value = = ya crap~ duh~

GARRULOUS NEW BLOG WAS JUST CREATED! YEAH! A MILLION THANKS TO CANDICE FOR HELPING US CREATE THE BLOG! LLURVE U! WAHAHA... http://garrulousgirls-09.blogspot.com/ GO TAKE A LOOK!!

2009-04-11T05:01:00.000-07:00

heyhey here to blog again! SORRY TO ZINTHET! actually meeting her today, budden i cancel it cause got slight flu.

YESTERDAY
went to church with yanni and her pri sch fren~! woosh! had a great time! the drama was real touching! and the people were all very nice!! :)

TODAY
will, today afternoon chat with my crazy girlfrens. had fun gossiping!! then watch anime lol...and i just found out that i got into the SECOND CLASS in sp...WAHA. wonder what that means! LOL JKJK! anyways, meeting girlfrens at jp tml!! yay!!! sian la~!! :) thats all! nth to blog about also. except that i am totally rotting~ :)

2009-04-08T08:18:00.001-07:00

heyhey! here to BLOG again! woohoo! had LOTS of FUN today!! woohoo! meet auntie ho first at 11 plus, cause she wanna develop photo for her aunt. then after that yh called, she reached the third. and she didnt know that we are actually going to west coast park! wahaha!!~~~ after that went to pizza hut!! wahaha!! and turns out that the server is my senior (at sp), third year! WOOHOO~! after that yanni came, follow by cherrie and huiyun. wahhahaa...then after that when to take bus 30 to WEST COAST PARK! my motto for the day is ' near trees' and 'open 24 hours'. ha! guess only the gals n i know wad it means. climb the paramit! woo! hy wad super scared to climb up~~ waha! shake like crazy. yanni lei? even worst. refused to climb up...wahahahaha!!! then it's like super sunny? so we spend most of the time in mac. EXPECT for hy n me, duh, walking around like mad for some DUH reasons. =.= faint. yeah near tree near tree. == faint~ then after that we go jp...play some game. wahaha...then gladys n yanni went home first. rachel, candice, cherrie and me go to some playground and chat lor...then got one cat one...waha!! candice ran away. omfg! WAHAHA! then go to mac to chat then go home..super tired ah~!!!!

2009-04-07T04:16:00.000-07:00

just now, when i look into my calender, i saw that 13th april is next week. i think and think. 13 april i like got something on. then sudddenly, OH MY GOD! IT'S MY ORIENTATION! I FORGOT! SHIT! interesting. here i go thinking i still have a LONG holiday but actually sch starts NEXT WEEK! omg~ i am super nervous. but also glad that my long term holiday is finally ending. rotting at home right now. tml going to west coast park! yay!! actually is friday going out one but cancel..now is wed go wcp. woohoo! gonna enjoy myself tml! or else when sch starts i dont think i will enjoy since needa go sch almost everyday. sian, wil miss my girlfrens much. meeting them eat after sch for somedays. woosh~! hope can make lots of friends at sp!! yeah! wish me luck people!~ woosh~! wonder how is sp like. how my course is like. will i get use to it? omg. last year at this time, i am wondering about my o levels. now one year later, i am finally going into my desire school! yay!!! wonder three years later at this time, what will i be doing. after i graduated from sp. wahaha. i think too much liao. 0.0 yeah... looking forward to TML! YAY! WCP! WAHAHA...THAT'S ALL~

2009-04-04T22:12:00.001-07:00

today is the first time i am feeling so pissed off. so fuckingly sad. so much so for frens huh. i did like to shoot the exact word back to you. all this while here silly me go thinking finally made a fren that shares similar interest with me. even thought i back out on most, cause i wan a grasp of reality. shared so many happy memories, yet maybe those times to you were just a torture huh. cause u tot yourself as a wad? substitute fren? where did u find that shit? cant i have more than one besties? in case you r wondering, u r in that list. but everything u had said makes me feel that u think i treat u badly, i am using u, only coming to find u when i needed u. did i? nv once in my mind did u become a substitute. i am seriously hurt n shocked when i saw u wrote that. wad am i to u exactly? all this while? a burden that u wanna throw away. so like u say u jus slowly fade away? and all this time u actually do not really wan me as a fren? while u put on a happy happy expression? u said about this, dun use your name when i am meeting someone. how on earth am i suppose to know that u do not like it when u didnt even say anything? i thought that u were my fren? and friends tell one another things that they do not like. and now u blame it onto me. my fault. i did ask u before hand, asking is it fine. ask u if i can go to your house after that. now end up i am the bad guy? i qian zhe ni de bi zhi zou? if u dun like something, say it. and i tot i was your friend, and i opened up to u. and i tot u would too. but turns out i am just hoping for too much. and for your information, i only told my mother your name once, and that's all. but all in all, sorry for putting u on the line where if anything happens to me u r the one with responsibilty. but u know, u r thinking too damn much. just becus i used your name, u said that u r a substitute fren. i used your name becus i know u and u R my fren and i felt that u will be willing to help. is that so bad of a thing? from the start, all i am worrying about is losing contact with u, becus u are my fren and i do enjoy going out walk walk like mad with u. hence i call, sms, msn. and i do realise that u r studying real hard so i might not contact u often as while. but i guess your wouldnt care less rite? since you didnt even bother returning my calls, and even state that u wan to fade away?

i tell you things is only for two simple reason, i trusted you, and you were my gd fren. and now u turn one round shoot me back? friends tell one another things, dont they? and when i seriously need ppl to talk to, i honestly tot tat u will be there as well. and wad u said really insulted me. i told you things becus i have nobody else to tell? wad are you implying? i have no friends except u? is that what u are trying to hint? if it is, i think i really made a wrong choice to consider you as a fren, even for a single minute, not to say this few months. how can u say that i tell u becus of the tootpid reasons u gave? if from the start you think of it that way, then just tell me, and i will clarify it to you. if u do not like so many things about me, then just shoot it to me and i will just pissed off from your sight.

i do not need your apology, becus even if u say sorry, nth of everything can be changed. and well, going exactly as u wanted it, from this moment onward i will disappear from your sight. like as you said, u wanted to just fade away. but i am not like you, i dun enjoy being a shadow of ppl, and only when ppl look behind then they realise that u are there. i say goodbye. i take initative. and heres my advice as your ex-classmate, take it or leave it.
when u pass your exams next year and got into your desired course, take initative to talk to ppl. maybe i am wrong, but the past two years, u were super quiet. i do not even know which group u belong to in class. to tell the truth, i didnt know u were there until year 4. and please dun say i am insulting you. i am jus telling the truth from an outsider view. if you cant take that much, i dunno wad to say. but face it, it's sort of the truth. make yourself known. open up or else people wont know how to open up to you too.

that's all i have to say to you. goodbye, my ex-classmate.

2009-04-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

haish alittle pissed off now. i think u pissed at me too. for wad reasons? i think i know. but ignoring me? duh~? if not happy just shoot! dun act like an idiot ignoring ppl. duh!? how old liao u? n beside, return me my thing. f. u borrow it from me, u return it urself. zhi dong. dun always me first go ask u to return. basic thing also bu zhi dao? duh? i know sometimes i go back on my words. but please, does it affect ur life? no! if u r gonna ignore me, at least return my things. dun wan see me, u come my house give my mother. then i wont ever find u again. ur face wont even appear in my mind. so much so for friend. i back out of promises becus i realise things u r blind by. understand? u r still my gdfren n if possible i wan it to maintain that way. but if u cant do that, then like do like stated above.

2009-04-03T06:19:00.000-07:00

here to blog again! this morning woke up late lol. but! it's usual for me to be late. wahaha!! lol...

recieved my second bear!!! my third haagen das ice cream!! n one durian dessert!! XIE XIE NI! :)

today at home is totally five words..B.O.R.E.D. play audition also so sian. i play this few days non stop till my hand so pain!! so today miss till like retarded. duh. then read manga lol..naruto n bleach. read till halfway i doze off. duh~ tired ah... i think i sick again. flu...keep on ha chu~ 0.0 lol. i wan to go out!! faster next week! go out with my girlfrens again!! woosh~! yay!! :P emm also dunno wad to blog about. holidays are so boring~~ and i got so many months of holiday lor...but school is starting soon~!! but i guess when school start le i will be hoping for my holiday to faster come. orientation coming soon! quite nervous actually~ there will be a flag day! ah~~ asking people for money again. why, why, why, why~ compulsory somemore. tian ah~ 0.0

haish. now waiting for 10 oclock for ghost whisper~ nice! :)
nothing to blog about seriously~ :(
that's all bah~

2009-04-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

went to sentosa today with my girlfrens. super FUN! we CRAP like SHIT! WOOSH~! wahahahaha.... went to siloso beach n padawan beach, super YEAH! play with water lol.. n cherrie n yanni piggybag me in the water. super fun! wahaha...after water we go bath lol then go vivo eat. 0.0 lol... n actually, today got prank one. budden! all GONE! DUH! WHERE'S MY INTERESTING APRIL FOOL DAY! AH. TOOT. wahaha...yeah singapore got mermaid! yay! n we tell two of our innocent frens n they actually BELIEVE IT! OMFG! tian AH! tell them we wearing bikini they also BELIEVE IT!? WAHA. then say gladys, liqi, hy's darling coming they also BELIEVE! WAHAHa! omg!? LOL. DUH~~! LOL! duh! wahaha....today's a super fun day! yeah! wahaha...but i think i am sick lol...fever? abit flu...n damn i got darker liao. as if i am not dark enough. wth... lol.

damn dunno isit i am too tired or becus i am sick, keep on getting on bad mood lol. wth. haish so damn sian la. headache lor. duh~ haish. successfully quarrel with my mother and sister went i reached home. my sister in a mad mood too. duh. hi5! wahaha. my mother ask me go bath i dun wan, cus i wanna blog first, then she keep say say say till i snap n i say it's none of her business. haish i know i very bad la.. but temper is something that's just out of my control in time like this ( so call super headache, fever, flu, tired, restless). duh.

2009-03-31T05:37:00.000-07:00

today went to take testimonial with ga disc and her darling. omfg, LIMELIGHT! SUPER BRIGHT! then after take testimonial walk around wwss awhile. LAST time.! woowsh!~ then walk home lol. when reach the busstop i chiong home, ma de super limelight so faster tao li xian chang. n the testimonial makes no sense. like paing me ma pi on things i nv do. duh? piano? i no learn. only know a tiny bit. dancing? folk dance. singing? i onli mouthing words most of the time. but they say in my qualities. duh. anyways, went home then sit there stone awhile. parents watching the 9 oclock show on mobtv or miotv aiya dunno la. so lame lol. went online lor then so duh. read my manga again. nth to do. then play audi awhile lol. sian. at night auntie ho play with me audi, n tmd she win me. but anyways i no mood la wtf. lol. duh. dunno wad to blog about. oh ya tom is an exciting day! sentosa n DUH. wahaha...

oh yeah! today auntie ho gave me early bdae present. wahaha. omfg. cannot believe it. looks quite expensive also. minnie mouse. 0.0

2009-03-25T23:22:00.000-07:00

here to blog again. yesterday caught a stupid flu! but NEVERMIND! wahhaa...went out with my girlfrens yesterday! went to jp to walk walk. hy n cheli finding new laptop bag...then after that go find liqi at benten and we ate a super large icecream. at first, the ice cream look quite nice. but after we start digging, it looks super erxin. n damn it! found out that i am a "silence-er" cus everytime i talk end up leng chang! kao! k lor i very cold one duh dun talk liao..duh! 0.0 anyways, when to yh house! go there see her shuai ge didi and then played scrabble. damn my english sucks man. wahahah.. yesterday talk about ghost thingy lei...wahahah, have a GREAT time watching ga disc diam diam cus scare. wahaha! next wednesday sentosa! YAY! sian la nth to do lor...kao eh. got a slight headache now, maybe cus yesterday flu? damn it man.

2009-03-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

heyhey! i am here to BLOG again!!!!!! YOYOYO!!! it's 1113pm and i am still online! wahahah!!!! i am a ye mao zi lei!!!!!!! today went to jurong medical centre to pei my mama go check up. woosh. end up go there 4 NOTHING cus there no have the facilities...DUH...then ask us go there 4 WAD! WASTE 20 DOLLARS TO SEE A DOCTOR TO TELL US THAT " sorry madam, need go alexandra hospital for the checkup"...DUH! wth... anyways, after that when to jp eat lol...then go gekpo buy my contact lense then went home. so sian la...today my sis bf come my house then we all eat pizza tgt. wahaha...omg, i saw someone on tv...tian ah... i cannot believe it... especially his parents!! omfg? he's like damn rich? omg. n i actually know who is he. cant believe it man. rub my eyes ten times, call ga disc ho to confirm then omg, really is him. duh. omfg. anyways, watch movie with my gorgor( sch of rock and robot.). long long time no watch with him liao...thought all the way silence but at least i got to pei him lol....dui bu chi la the previous previous post, if u happen to so dao mei saw it, sorriex!

looking 4ward to tml cus can see my crazy frens again...can-this?(candice), cheli(cherrie), yammy?t-shirt?(tee yanni), ray cheer yo ink huey( ying hui), ga disc old ya li(gladys hohoho)...lychee no go i think she BUSY! wahaha...bet she enjoys work now...wahahha...cus of some REASONS...wahaaahahha...:) duh???!! LOL..

damn it i am tired liao...damn it la...0.0 tat's all for today's crap.

love you:) muacks.thanks for everything:)

2009-03-21T06:39:00.000-07:00

better faster blog now or my internet connection go haywire again..haha. emm sorry about the post yesterday, was rather pissed off. but i am alright! :) em went out with ga disc old ya li today to jurong point walk walk lol. walk here walk there till so sian ah. oh, ga disc bought something 4 her darling today. so good.? wahahaha. hey ga disc old where's my present! lol. wahahaha. anyways, eat dinner at long john, then walk again. leg pain! duh! then omg, jp got dance competition. hai hao la they dance. got courage lol. i like the song better than their dance. 0.0 no offence here. wahahah...:) after that went to library to walk walk lor. nth better to do wahahahah. just go there to turn oxygen into carbon dioxide. wahaha. my sci rocks. lol. -.- well, after that walk to gekpo then walk around also. damn it i am bored! after tat went home. really super bored! i am bored! ahhhhh. 0.0 oh my internet connections got problem one lor. dunno what's wrong with it. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................................

ok that's all. nothing to write. damn it. =.-

2009-03-20T04:20:00.000-07:00

you know what's the meaning of pissed off? huh? wan me to LOOK INTO THE DICTIONARY FOR YOU? F IT! NO NEED, I TELL YOU, IT MEANS YOU ARE SO DAMN IRRITATING ME LAO NIANG. TA MA DE. EITHER YOUR HANDS ARE ROTTEN SO YOU CANT TYPE OR YOUR MOUTH GOT STINK BUY BEES SO YOU CANT SPEAK. HOPE YOU SAW MY BLOG OR ELSE I AM GOING TO EXPLODE. KAO? WAD THE HELL? DUN GIVE ME THE CRAPPY SHIT THAT YOU ARE SAD OR WADEVER PAST YOU FCUKINGLY HAVE. HAVE A LJ! I CONGRA YOU FOR SUCCESSFULLY HIDING WHATEVER SHIT YOU HAVE FROM US. YEAH, WE ARE JUST SHIT ASS THAT NOT WORTH TELLING ANYTHING TO. YEAH, SHIT YOU. DO YOU EVEN CARE THAT WE ARE FCUKINGLY WORRIED FOR YOU. AND TA MA DE I ON HOLIDAY NOW I GOT SO MANY SHITY TIME TO THINK AND 50 PERCENT USED UP TO WORRY FOR YOU. AND YOU TAKE OUR WORRY AS WAD? DA BIAN? MOSQITOE THAT YOU JUST PIA THEN HACK CARE ABOUT IT ALREADY? HUH? HUH? WAD IS FAMILY TO YOU? U ARSEHOLE. GOT WAD PROBLEM THEN SHARE. S-H-A-R-E. NEED ME TO TYPE ONE MORE TIME? S-H-A-R-E YOU FCUKING SHIT. SIBLINGS FOR WHAT ONE? YOUR CLOSEST BLOOD RELATIVE YOU CANT EVEN OPEN UP TO?? OR MAYBE EVERYTHING IS BECUS OF US THEN YOU LIDAT? U R SERIOUSLY PISSING ME OFF. YOU THINK YOU LIDAT DIAM DIAM VERY COOL AH? LATER I GO TAKE ONE STRING SEW IT UP FOR YOU. MA DE. WHAT IS MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU? FAMILY OR YOUR SHITY PROBLEM? WE DUN CARE HOW BIG YOUR PROBLEM IS, WE STILL WANT TO KNOW. WE ARE NOT TRYING TO PEEK INTO YOUR MISERABLE LIFE. OR WHATEVER SHIT. WE JUS CARE FOR YOU ARSEHOLE. UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THAT WORD? NO? ASK YOUR KINDERGARDEN TEACHER! FCUK YOU. U KNOW WAD HAPPEN TODAY? MOTHER GO CHECK UP IN POLYCLINIC CUS OF THE LUMP. DO YOU KNOW THE RESULT? HUH? IF NO, ASK MOTHER YOUR SELF. GOT ANYTHING DONT ALWAYS KEEP TO YOURSELF. KNOW WHAT IS MY FCUKING BLOG ADDRESS? U-R-N0T-ALONE! U R FCUKINGLY NOT ALONE. DUN GIVE ME THE SHIT THAT SOME PROBLEMS CANNOT SHARE. YOUR SHIT ASS PROBLEM AFFECT THE WHOLE FAMILY YOU STILL LIDAT? AND CRAP YOUR EMO BLOG ENTRY. IF YOU ARE GOING TO BE STUCK IN THE WADEVER SHIT SITUATION THAT I DUN KNOW YOU ARE NV GONNA GET OUT. TRY DIGGING OUT DAMN YOU. AND WE ARE HERE TO HELP, FCUK YOU. WAD TIME HEALS WOUND? YOU HURT YOURSELF N YOU NV CARE ABOUT IT EVEN IF IT HEALS SOMEDAY A SCAR WILL BE THERE. BUT IF YOU TAKE ACTIONS ON IT IT WILL HEAL BETTER. FCUK IT MAN.

2009-03-15T04:57:00.000-07:00

oh yeah i am here to blog again! today not feeling very well, reckon i caught a flu. ahh...today went to wai poi house, celebrated my cousin's birthday! woosh! damn it i am fcukingly bored! even my laptop didnt entertain me much cause i CANT DOWNLOAD AUDITION! DAMN IT! WAD THE HECK! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............i am ROTTING! WHO GOT JOB LOBANG? I WAN JOB!

well actually have nothing to blog about anyway. damn it la. 0.o boring.

blame myself for it.

2009-03-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

well, i am really bored. i cant believe how alive my blog is right now.

this morning met leh cheer yo ink huey at my house bus stop. finally returned her cert. 0.0 chatted for awhile and i wwent to sheng song with my sister to buy bills andd buy some food. well, i am kinda rotting down here. nothing interesting nowadays expect some family problems which i have no idea of anyways to solve. it's like hitting two hard diamonds together, unbreakable. damn it. 0.0

i congra myself today for putting one fucking big stone down. time to say goodbye. maybe not a real goodbye, but no longer what it used to be. well, zai jian le.

emm, later going to ah ma house. eating with parents first then going there. haish, i am fuckingly bored right now that i wouldnt say no to another o level stress. dammit. well, nothing to blog about. just here for the sick of wasting time. chao!

i do miss you and care for you. but words from you, i just dont understand. i cant differ if it's real or fake. dakara, sayonara, watashi daski nan hito.

2009-03-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

sure, i am bored. sure, my laptop sucks. sure, i am complaining. sure, it sucks. damn it. 0.0 i am bored! well, i guess that's explain why my blog is alive again now. today is a long day, with completely nothing to do. gladys ho played audition with me, wahaha. she's at jurong east library, i am at home. two completely different location. -.- fcuk it, while i am typing, my bloody letter L on my keyboard keep poping out. thanks so much acer! your laptop quality completely rocks(sucks). damn it.

anyways, got nothing to blog about today at all. watching anime again, my god. watching kodocha, so damn funny. naruto and bleah is out! naruto's dad came out when the naruto got eight tails out, damn it. ichigo died? and it seems like he became hollow or something like tat. i reckon his hollow side is out again. damn it. well, later playing playing audi again with GLADYS HO YEN LING. 0.o tml meeting AUNTIE YEOH to give her back her cert. 0.o well, thats all.

well, stop messing up my feelings damn it.

2009-03-11T19:35:00.000-07:00

here to blog again after what seems like...months? it's holidays and holidays for me right now~ no waking up super early for school, no studying like nobody's business for exams, but full of having a nothing to do day. really, it's super boring.

just got my brand new laptop (acer)... it's super heavy, my keyboard letter L pop out yesterday, i cant download my games...what a great laptop. this morning went out with yinghui to go back to my EX school to take my tapestry and o level cerfiticate. they even gave us a survey to fill in. -.- wrote same crap to humor them. -.- i cant believe that some senior took their wedding photo at westwood! that's probably the LAST thing i would do on earth. well, no offence here. :) anyways, accompany ying hui to kenny cafe for breakfast.

yesterday went out with hui yun, cherrie, ying hui and gladys to KBOX at clementi. i think we shouted more then singing. hui yun dont even need a mike to shout super loud. gosh. well, had lots of fun scaring ying hui and gladys when they went to the creepy toliet. it's super damn dark and looks like those gross toliet you will see in a horror movie. so exciting. in the end we went to the toliet at the clinic next door and got a free apple. -.- lmao. anyways, we went to queensway after that. thanks gladys for pangsei-ing halfway when we are at the bus stop and thanks yanni for not coming at all...0.0 haha...must treat us next time for abandoning us!! woosh~ 0.0 ate a super nice katong laksa at qw, damn it i still want lol. -.- shopped around qw after that and hy n yh bought fbt. i like hy's lime green fbt top! didnt saw it the last time i went there or else i would have bought that colour! oh, and i found out that yh actually like pink alot. 0.o anyways, we walk and walk and then took bus back to jurong point. damn it, i cant believe that my hair colour is black again after all this time! fcuk my enrolment! no hair colour allow or no taking of sp card and buying of laptop. duh? poly no hair colour? joke? -.- going to dye to light copper brown next week. anyways, yh shop for presents and hy bought some things and we sit at mac chatting. poor cherrie being bullied, but sorry i enjoy seeing u bullied too much! ( jkjk) anyways, we planning to so sentosa next week! GLADYS HO YEN LING YOU BETTER COME OR I ASK MOMO HUNT YOU WHEN YOU SLEEPING! well, go okay auntie ho. -.- lol

well, that's all...-.- don't know went i'll blog again. i have nothing to do!! damn it.

how do i know if i can trust you. i cant hear your thought, i do not know what you are thinking, i dont know you well enough, i really dont know.

2008-11-11T03:43:00.000-08:00

here to blog. last time i came was like...months ago? olvls finally over. time to wait for the results...super boring...personally i have nth to do as i cant play due..wth...got time limit somemore... currently finding jobs lol...hope i can find. or i reckon i will rob to death=.- no money, no comics. hell. well anyway, went to bugis with gladys today. tom going to job interview with huihui while some ke lian people are taking their o lvl pure science. glad that i drop. at least drop liao can pass. no drop comfirm f9-.= wahahaha.

blog been died for so long. actually plan on letting it be die forever budden i really got nth to do. my tootpid com is lagging and i dunno wad i can do lol...cant watch anime. cant read manga. cant play maple. the monster jus stop attacking halfway and even my character stone. how nice. -.= wth.. toot com.

looking forward to fahrenheit coming on this sun? sat i cant go out, sian. got something on=.- wth. the cute ya lun coming! woohoo!!! he in singapore!!! oh my gosh.

well...hope i can enjoy my long term holidays even after collecting results. today even went to shi ma lu guan yin mau pray...gladys and i looked like an outcast there but well, nvm hhaa...haish i am damn super bored...-.= end here...haish...

2008-06-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

here to blog again! today i went to watch WANTED with gladys and hui hui. karmen couldnt make it:( she's saving money...:O wah...hope she buys lots of COMICS!!! then we can exchange again!!!

WANTED is super nice! LOVE it. it's so much better than shaolin girl that i watched with hui hui the previous week. it's too cool! and the story line is so awesome! it's a little gruesome la, i dun recommend people who is expecially scared of seeing blood to watch it. :) i like the fighting part. the way they fight is so EXCITING! omg! the way they drive too! but if they are driving on the highway and you are on that highway too, i reckon you will be in your coffin soon. =.- LOVE IT!

well, right now i am waiting for a few new movies called cyborg she, and hellboy, etc. hope cyborg she wont disappoint me like how shaolin girl does! japan already release the movie, but singapore will only release it in aug. SO SLOW! cant wait to watch it!

today i saw hui yun, jing hui in the cinemas. then on bus, i saw li qi and ying hui. what a coincidence! :) ha! anyway, i cooked a suprisingly delicious dessert today. chocolate with cream. it's nice! i am a natural cooker!! 0.o

olvl chinese oral coming soon! i think mine is on next wed? super nervous. hope i can go ok! must remember to bring my "fu" on that day. must remember to pray too-.=

gonna end....

2008-06-21T03:05:00.000-07:00

here to post again! ha:) must rucsh to type my post,, cause going to go out SOON! ha...family going restaurant to eat hao liao! haha...droop!!!! :0 nowadays' so boring. nothing to do but stone, study or wadever. AH!! MUST STOP HERE!! OR ELSE LEFT AT HOME ALONE!!

THATS ALL! -.=

2008-06-11T05:54:00.000-07:00

here to post again!! my father let me use awhile!! yeah!!! nowadays so bored cause stuck at home and i cant even use com!TORTURE! been reading books, and doing some studying. social studies seems like stranger to me-.= amaths too. maths, i cant even rememebr the simplest formula. and here i am going to take olvl exams months later. quite worried. must work hard! i spend four months slacking. omg. cannot waste anymore time!!!! yep! GAMBATHE! tml going library to study with yh and liqi! hope to become friends with my textbooks and maths once again!

that's all...........

:)

2008-06-06T01:47:00.000-07:00

HEY YA! my FIRST post! finally can post. my parents lock my sister com with pw, so i cant go online until after o lvls. right now i am in liqi's house! ha! painting my nails:P finally two weeks school over. time for sec 4 to 'rest'. or rather, study at home=.- how i wish olvls will just come tml. haish. that's all bah!!!